So peeps. After a long hiatus, I noticed that the dashboard seemed a little odd but meh :/ Not much of a change.
Anyways......... hmmmm let's see what to talk about today. mmm
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man i need to get my thoughts organized!
Well, it's November already. Time waits for no man. A shoutout to the girl whose birthday this 21st! You know who you are! heee..
Anyways, I have been wondering la. Pondering. Reflecting. How does my friends see me? Have you ever wonder? Or am I just too effin free to even have these kind of thoughts (err no I am not! I have to read for tmr's Physio class!) Well all I can say is..... it's haunting ME and i just have to type it out.
Cuz I don't know, I can't judge myself. I wish i could just jump out of my body and watch myself for a day. Apart from being VERY LOUD. I wonder, whether I'm actually doing GOOD job at being a GOOD friend. Am I overthinking? I do not know. Cuz If you ask me to judge myself, ALL see is that I am FAILING it :(
Here are the reasons why:
a) I DO NOT know how to console people. I wont deny the fact that i tried but.... in the end, I am the one quiet. Sitting next to a sad friend, looking all worthless and insignificant.
b) then, I DO NOT know, how to cheer people up.
Huh really, you can unfriend me, it'll save you the trouble. I'd be racking my brain, thinking how on earth can I cheer someone up. I dont know, Im a failure. Shesh.
c) I DO NOT know how to be a listener.
Okay first of all, if a friend refuses to tell you what is bugging them. What are you supposed to do?
Are we suppose to give them time to themselves? (as if give them alone time?) OR do I have to keep asking? To show that we are really concerned about them, but then again, WON'T we be annoying like that? If your intentions was to give them time of their own and be respectful... then what if the other party sees it as.."not concerned"? IDK la.
I try to be a better friend this friend of mine. Although I'm failing big time being a good friend, I wont stop here la. Hmm maybe I do over think things and maybe you do have to love your friend with your heart instead of your mind. As long as I know my intentions are sincere kan? Isn't it supposed to be like this? Hmmmmmmmm... Oh vell. I pray for that friend of mine. Cuz I cant even help her. Whoever la have me as a friend must be unlucky. My very existence must be your karma? IDK. I have a psychologist friend,who once told me that, not ALL of us humans have the same thinking, demands and what not. You just need to learn and be observant, if you really wanna know how to (damnit what's the word....) (mmmmmmm) treat that person la. Okay. I dont expect anyone to read this, it is merely an expression of my thoughts. Lagi-lagi my not-so-good english.
Anyways......... hmmmm let's see what to talk about today. mmm
mm...
man i need to get my thoughts organized!
Well, it's November already. Time waits for no man. A shoutout to the girl whose birthday this 21st! You know who you are! heee..
Anyways, I have been wondering la. Pondering. Reflecting. How does my friends see me? Have you ever wonder? Or am I just too effin free to even have these kind of thoughts (err no I am not! I have to read for tmr's Physio class!) Well all I can say is..... it's haunting ME and i just have to type it out.
Cuz I don't know, I can't judge myself. I wish i could just jump out of my body and watch myself for a day. Apart from being VERY LOUD. I wonder, whether I'm actually doing GOOD job at being a GOOD friend. Am I overthinking? I do not know. Cuz If you ask me to judge myself, ALL see is that I am FAILING it :(
Here are the reasons why:
a) I DO NOT know how to console people. I wont deny the fact that i tried but.... in the end, I am the one quiet. Sitting next to a sad friend, looking all worthless and insignificant.
b) then, I DO NOT know, how to cheer people up.
Huh really, you can unfriend me, it'll save you the trouble. I'd be racking my brain, thinking how on earth can I cheer someone up. I dont know, Im a failure. Shesh.
c) I DO NOT know how to be a listener.
Okay first of all, if a friend refuses to tell you what is bugging them. What are you supposed to do?
Are we suppose to give them time to themselves? (as if give them alone time?) OR do I have to keep asking? To show that we are really concerned about them, but then again, WON'T we be annoying like that? If your intentions was to give them time of their own and be respectful... then what if the other party sees it as.."not concerned"? IDK la.
I try to be a better friend this friend of mine. Although I'm failing big time being a good friend, I wont stop here la. Hmm maybe I do over think things and maybe you do have to love your friend with your heart instead of your mind. As long as I know my intentions are sincere kan? Isn't it supposed to be like this? Hmmmmmmmm... Oh vell. I pray for that friend of mine. Cuz I cant even help her. Whoever la have me as a friend must be unlucky. My very existence must be your karma? IDK. I have a psychologist friend,who once told me that, not ALL of us humans have the same thinking, demands and what not. You just need to learn and be observant, if you really wanna know how to (damnit what's the word....) (mmmmmmm) treat that person la. Okay. I dont expect anyone to read this, it is merely an expression of my thoughts. Lagi-lagi my not-so-good english.
