Yep I'm still awake. I can't sleep thinking about this bloody microbiology. I'm thinking if I were to fail tomorrow....err.. I mean, later, I might as well should never start on my microbes and just focus on biochemistry instead. Me going through all this is like a living proof of what a failure is. I want everything in the end.... I get nothing.
That's for being greedy.
That's for being dumb.
And that's for being lazy.
My shoulders are heavily burdened. Yet.. I feel like... haih. It's hard. I have to continue my journey. No one can stop me. And no one can help me. I wish to get hit by a bus instead and have amnesia then be in a coma. Haih. I wanna disappear from this world sometimes. I want it so badly till it hurts. It hurts like hell. I hate that sometimes I'm a burden for others too. Am I being overly sensitive right now? Or is it also cuz of my period. Wow my mind is flying everywhere right now. Either way....I dont care. I'm trying not to care. I dont wanna care.
MY CUP OF CARE IS EMPTY!
That's for being greedy.
That's for being dumb.
And that's for being lazy.
My shoulders are heavily burdened. Yet.. I feel like... haih. It's hard. I have to continue my journey. No one can stop me. And no one can help me. I wish to get hit by a bus instead and have amnesia then be in a coma. Haih. I wanna disappear from this world sometimes. I want it so badly till it hurts. It hurts like hell. I hate that sometimes I'm a burden for others too. Am I being overly sensitive right now? Or is it also cuz of my period. Wow my mind is flying everywhere right now. Either way....I dont care. I'm trying not to care. I dont wanna care.
MY CUP OF CARE IS EMPTY!
